Thrown clear

These shards of memory embedded, fragments lodged too close to the heart to remove. A jagged-edged memento lies deep, splintered evidence of impact scarred over. Its shrapnel threatens something vital, tearing open wounds with each recollection.

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Remission

Grief is the virus that surges and retreats without cure. It lingers dormant in the dark recesses of memory. Tears are the vector that spread its contagion among us. It seems I’ve beat it then there’s a welling up in my throat. I feel the tremor and then a convulsion that chokes me. There is […]

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Birthday diary

Pain meds wore off around 4:30 am. Inched out of bed. Stepped out into the courtyard to gaze at a brilliant tapestry of Winter stars. Caught the lingering sweetness of night blooming jasmine from the garden. Made a cup of ginger tea. Turned on BBC, caught up on e-mail from the US for a couple […]

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A body at rest

In the fog of first awakening from surgery, I recall seeing a masked ICU attendant hovering above me. “When does the operation start?” I croaked. “The surgery already finished.” Said the attendant, writing down something on a metal clipboard. “It’s 5pm, everything goes smoothly.” I smiled big, both for Nat and at having no recallection […]

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Rescue

It all started in the womb apparently; A random confusion of signals That triggered the cellular mutiny. Jaundice was the warning And then pain that brought Howling fits late into the night. Don’t blame yourself, the doctor told us; This condition arises without clear cause And is as rare as a Tahitian black pearl. Somewhere […]

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The big swim

After our baby’s recent Kasai procedure (liver duct bypass surgery), my wife and I are optimistic about her chances of full recovery. While we love seeing Nat as her active and cheerful self these days, we also know that there’s a strong likelihood that she will soon need a liver transplant. While most people would […]

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The things we leave behind

When most of us think of success, it’s about the things we have accumulated; knowledge, money, seniority and achievements. We derive our satisfaction and happiness from these things based on how favorably they compare to cultural measures. I think about success in terms of who I am becoming, and for me to become the person […]

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